Q&A: Allie X


What (or who) made you pursue music as a career?

I don’t know...it was never really a question. It was the only thing I was good at and something I’ve done ever since I was born.

Who are some of your biggest influences?

I’m actually influenced on a visual level a lot more than I am on a sonic level. I love the work of Stanley Kubrick.

Has it always been clear to you that music is what you want to do?


Have you ever doubted your ability to be successful?

Yes, I have doubted my ability to be successful.

What influenced you as a child to pursue your dreams?

I don’t really speak too much about my childhood other than the story of X which is an abstract version of my childhood.

When writing music, do you write it for yourself or the listener?

On some levels, it’s always very selfish. I’m just, you know, I’m either writing a song because I want to get it placed or I want to get it on the radio or I want to make myself successful with it... or I want to experience some sort of therapeutic effect of, you know, expressing myself. But, ever since I started releasing music, I feel that there is this whole other aspect to it which is reaching an audience and giving people a means to express themselves.

What was it like writing with Troye Sivan?

Amazing- so fun! He’s a really smart person and a really charming, lovely person. I felt it was a really natural experience. We just all sort of sat in this garage studio in Silverlake and just kind of, you know, vibed it out!

How many songs did you guys do?

I mean, we wrote a number of songs. Some of them didn’t make the album- I think I ended up with 5 or 6 on the album.

What was your favorite song that you have written with him?

It changes between Bite and for him.

Both with writing with him and yourself, how is it writing songs and later seeing them live and the crowd react?

Pretty cool. I remember, like, when I started doing live shows which was only a year ago now in Montreal. It changed things when I started performing things live and realized that I actually had people who loved them and knew the words. There’s been such an internet- sort of- support, but as weird as it sounds, you don’t really connect that there’s an actual person. Seeing those people in front of me and putting a face to a Twitter handle really changed the scope of the project for me.

Do you write from personal experiences or do you have other influences?

I write from personal experiences, but usually it’s more indirect. Sort of like a personal experience that caused me to have a lifelong anxiety problem which gives me a weird image in my head that inspires a song kinda thing.

Which do you prefer more: performing or writing?

Between touring and writing: writing. Between performing and writing, I mean, if I could just be transplanted from my apartment to a stage with it all set up and everything ready to go, then performing.

Biggest goal for the future?

To feel whole.

If you could describe yourself in one word, what would it be?